Hi, I need to committ blog catharsis, so here I am. It is Tuesday, October 30, the eve of Halloween (that sounds much better than "day before Halloween").
Why am I writing this blog entry, when I am in neither Clearwater or Thailand, as these were supposed to be the topics of all future blog entries? Is that a long question?
Because I'm messed up.
No, seriously, I'm messed up.
I threw my back out again yesterday. I don't think it ever completely healed from the initial injury last month.
My peroneal tendonitis in my left foot is back.
I developed tendonitis in the back of my right leg while trying to keep weight off my left foot.
I feel like a freakin' cripple.
Swimming hurts. Biking hurts. Running hurts. See, this is what happens when you race hard all season. It's the risk that you take. Of course, it was all worth it.
HERE is my frustrating dilemna. I'm signed up to race Half Ironman World Championships in 11 days. I'm signed up to race in Thailand on December 3. Hotels are booked. Plane tickets are bought. Race entries are paid. Everything is set up.
And all I really want to do is just NOTHING. I want to quit training, and now I can't. I'm roped in. I'm painted into a corner.
Hawaii was supposed to be the culmination of the season, and it was an injury fest. I still haven't bounced back. I haven't been able to go hard and fast in I don't know how long. I'm losing my touch. Losing my speed. These next two races are going to SUCK unless I figure something out.
OK, I've ranted. Over and out.